The lunar new year... I don't celebrate it, yet it's another wake up call shouting,
"YES! YOU NEED TO SNAP OUT OF IT!"
I despise new yearS. Not sure why, but perhaps because my birthday falls on the same date (with the solar new year that is). I never really understand the hype of "new life", "new beginning", and "resolution".
Being the least motivated person in the world, new year means nothing more than another 365 days full of struggle.
The Spirit Lighting the Moon You see, being a functional depressed person is not easy. Come to think of it, I think it's more of a bipolar thing. One minute I am okay, but most times, I feel like shit. But whatever it is, I just... function. I am too scared to end my own life. But I am also hating life. Whoa, what the hell happened in heaven when they sent my soul to this body? Hey, even God make mistakes.
Well, that's Ms. Pessimistic talking. Ms. Other Pole. Let's give her a name, shall we? I shall call you Dot. Because Dot, only thinks of the end. Bad endings.
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I have decided to post little stuffs now instead of long entries.
It is for the better, that I post fragments of my thoughts of the day, or week or month. It shall be a project to document my poor brain activity.
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